Everything is always okay in the end, if it's not okay, then it's not the end.

going into summer, my life sucked. i was newly single for the first time in 2 years, and was completely at a loss of friends. that was probably one of the lowest points in my entire life. i didn't even know what to do with myself. until the 4 best friends i could ever imagine swooped me out of the valley and back into a beautiful life. they changed me forever. college has violently torn us all in different directions and has had some good and bad effects on us. i have definitely learned a lot through them though. 


but the major change came from Camp All American. Yeah, it suckkkkkedddd waking up at 6:25 Monday-Friday, yes it sucked sitting in traffic and speeding to get to work by 8, dealing with whining, bratty, tired kids. yes it sucked staying for late camp and playing in the splash pad. yes it sucked being late for every activity and hearing complaints. yes, it sucked when i got a parent complaint the last week of camp saying i needed to be more enthusiastic with my campers. yes, it sucked missing out on almost everything with my friends. but i wouldn't trade a SECOND of my summer with those amazing little kids for anything. it was the most important summer of my life and i can't wait to see if my life leads me back to CAA next summer. 


one little boy made the biggest difference in my life at CAA. Brett Barber. He was my 4 year old boyfriend, and i was his 18 year old girlfriend. that little boy seriously made my day everyday when he chose me over every other counselor. i was his favorite and i wouldn't have wanted it any other way. he was the biggest brat at camp. but definitely the cutest with his bleach blond hair, and his bright blue eyes, Brett barber stole my heart in the cutest little way this summer. whenever i needed a hug all i had to do was ask and he'd come running into my arms with the biggest hug ever. he's scream my name during assembly. 'MS.ALEX MS.ALEX MS.ALEX' until i would finally look over and wave and he'd flash back the cutest shy little smile ever. one day Mr.barber started crying and no one knew what was wrong. he was practically hysterical. they came running to me, with Brett in tow, and threw him into my arms. within seconds the screams had calmed and he was quiet. when he was okay, i took him aside and asked him why he was so upset. when he took his thumb out of his mouth to answer, he looked up at me with those big blue eyes and simply said 'i didn't know where you were' 


a 4 year old boy cared enough about me to freak out just to get to me. to me. just one out of about 100 other counselors and he wanted me. to this day i don't even know why Brett barber and i connected the way we did. and i really hope to see him next summer. but even if i don't the way he impacted me will stay with me forever.


Camp All American changed me forever and I love it.

Brett Barber and I :)